Weightlifting – We aren’t all PB smashing in lockdown.

Disclaimers – This is my blog about me and how I am feeling. It’s representative only of me and also I have to say I’ve never done weightlifting. I’m the one that even sand kicks in the face on the beach. I’ve the strength of a watered down glass of Vimto. If you are after a muscleman shouting “neeyyaararrgghhhhhh” in a vest that’s too wee for him then sorry, but this is the wrong blog (though my clothes do feel like they have shrunk).

I haven’t blogged for nearly two months, I’m sure no-one has noticed, but sometimes you have to go back to your own form of therapy to help you through strange times. And these are strange times, and this is my form of therapy. I know there are a lot of people out there with a lot of time on their hands, and I see PBs galore on Strava, on Facebook and well done to you all, but this blog isn’t for those people today, this is for those of us who are struggling.


Now define struggling Mr Irritating, are you sick?

Is your family?

Are you a frontline key worker?

No, I am none of these things.

I am just a person, a Dad, a husband, an employee who is finding his mood and anxiety having shot after shot on a particularly fast rollercoaster. I am also allowed my wobbles. I am fortunate/ unfortunate to not be a furloughed member of staff. 80% of my workplace is, just so we can keep the business open. You do what you can to keep your and others livelihoods, you wear 4 or 5 different hats in the one day, spending hour after hour in a place not designed for work. I am not one of these people you see on the telly, or in my own Teams meetings with others. I have no home study, home office, impressive libraries of obscure books in the background, I am stuck up a loft working on a table maybe 1 metre by half a metre, paperwork all over the floor. Already you feel inferior seeing others and their swanky workstations. Aye you feel a failure for that, blurring out the background on Teams so no one can see where you are working. You don’t have all the stuff you need but you try. You make mistakes doing other peoples tasks but sort them, but these things take time. So much work to do I can’t get involved in home schooling, I am Facebook’s worst Dad it seems. It’s easy to fall way behind and difficult to catch back up. You see Social media full of people achieving. Not just PBs but new hobbies, quizzes, house improvements, etc etc and it’s tough. Running groups spend all their time arguing about how many runs you can do a day and how far and you have people complaining about posts, reporting them over and over and getting stroppy when it isn’t moderated straight away. Sorry I’m busy, I don’t read through all the posts.  Least of my worries peeps but carry on. Yes, none of these are frontline struggles. But they are head struggles, they affect. Helpless, hopeless, stressed, feeling inferior to everyone. Most of it irrational but your head doesn’t always listen to that. This ain’t going to be PB city.

Two months ago I was in the shape and form of my life.

Here I am now , I’m a fair bit heavier as eating crap to get me through the day. Eating more than I was when I was marathon training. Insomnia my new enemy and the more you try to sleep the less chance you have of doing it. I can’t follow any training plan. I have tried the virtual races just to try an give myself a bit of focus and well done to MAC, SA and BMC for arranging. Did 2 one milers in a week and went from 5.16 to 5.07 which was good but still way off last years pace and even where I was in March. You see the memories of last years races coming up, a 17.00 5k, 36.11 for 10k, you think where you are now, it adds to the fog in your head. It’s like a different life.

The long runs are a struggle. I have niggles – achilles on left, ball of foot on right. I should take time out but I need to run for clarity in the head. I miss running on the track. I miss my Tuesday sessions at MAC. I am bored with running from my house and have had to axe a couple of routes as some of Lanarkshire’s finest are congregating on the trails to get round the social distancing and getting lunged at and chased by a junkie not my idea of relieving the stress.

So here I am.

Not wanting sympathy as people are worse off, a LOT worse off. Not wanting to take the shine off those that are achieving in everything they are doing. You deserve it. I just know there are other people out there like me. I want you to know you are not alone, there are many of us struggling at times, and many of us whose running and fitness has got worse. Get it out and try and lift that fog. Do what you can and try not to compare yourselves with others. Us ordinary punters are struggling too. We are all dealt different cards, some cards you picked a while ago make it difficult for you too but just do what you can. If you have to switch off Strava, Facebook, whatever for a while then do it, do what is right for you. We will get through this, though these are tough times. If you can get out there and get one foot in front of another then we are winning, we need to remind ourselves of that.

I will not PB for a long time, maybe never again but I am not failing, I just doing the best I can just now, in everything and I just need to remind myself of that more often.

This is my weightlifting here, lifting a weight from my mind by sharing it. I have been listening to a lot of music while stuck in my loft, this has been my lockdown band. Thank you Trashcan Sinatras, one of Scotland’s finest. If you have made it this far, fair play and thanks, take care.

“You will find a great weight lifting 
Easing your mind, a great weight lifting 
Just leave it behind, a great weight lifting 
And you will find a great weight lifting






11 thoughts on “Weightlifting – We aren’t all PB smashing in lockdown.

  1. Fantastic read Mark and so well written! I can relate to this a lot just now too.

    If I had to pick a runner who has inspired me over the past 2 years it would be you. What you achieved last year was outstanding. To PB so many times. But what I appreciate more is what you do for others and the encouragement you give people. You contribute so much to the running community, which is so inspiring. I’m sure you’ll be back in great shape soon.

    Thanks for sharing and take care.

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